Natalie Goldberg: Card #6
The day I wrote about Card #5 from Natalie Goldberg’s Deck of writing “nudges,” it was February 3rd. Now I’m on Card #6, and it’s almost a whole month later. My original plan was to write into the subject of one card per day. Ish. Now a whole month has passed.
Know why?
I know why.
I was being a perfectionist.
I wanted to write about yesterday. As in, the day before today. All zen, like. Just noticing what happened yesterday. But I kept thinking, Wait. I wasn’t present enough yesterday to remember what to write about. I’ll pay attention really hard today, and then I’ll write about that tomorrow.
But I’d forget. And day after day, I kept making more excuses. Yesterday wasn’t interesting enough. Tomorrow I have a brain scan happening. I’ll write about that, day after tomorrow.
It got ridiculous. So I’m calling myself on it, and here I go.
I’m telling you about yesterday.
Yesterday was February 28th, Tuesday. I followed my morning routine, made my bed, showered, dressed, and sat in meditation for a little over 20 minutes.
I’d gotten up early to get to the lab by 7:50 for a blood draw. There’s a remote possibility I’m showing very…